Rambling thoughts

This time last year I was a few days away from my due date with Nathan. Super stressed about traveling right after my baby was to be born. Stressed about the end of the semester. And just life in general.

I don't even remember New Year's Eve last year. Really, like at all. Was I still in AZ?

All I know is that I like to live life one day at a time. Sometimes one minute at a time. And then things happen and life forces me to think into the future and make these big huge decisions about a thousand tomorrows from now. And I'm like, I can't even decide what to cook for dinner! How am I supposed to decide if and where Aaron should do a Pharmacy Residency. Of course it's a decision we are making together. And with the help of prayer and all that. But still. It stresses me out to literally not even know where to register Olivia for Kindergarten next year.

It is a stressful time.

But at least I'm not pregnant.

Sometimes that thought is my saving grace. Wow these kids are driving me crazy! At least I'm not currently growing another one.

That probably sounds horrible. If you think I am horrible for thinking this I invite you to come spend 24 hours with my little crew.

See how fast you get your tubes tied.

Kidding!

But really...

No, no, my kids are great. In fact, old blog, you might want to know that Nathan isthisclose to walking. He will just stand right up and I know he's just getting ready to take off.

Also, tonight Abigail told me I'm the best cooker in the world of soup. (I made a really yummy black bean soup for dinner. Which Aaron only gave a 4/5 so I won't bother sharing the recipe...)

Also, did you know Netflix got the rights to Disney movies? There are a few titles already available like Dumbo and Pocahontas. When I told Abigial Dumbo was on Netflix and we could watch it whenever she wants she happily exclaimed, "THIS IS MY MAGICAL DREAM COME TRUE!" Her magical dream. So cute. So we watched Dumbo, twice.

Oh I've also been meaning to tell you Abigail has an imaginary friend. Named Abigail. She will often talk about "the other Abigail". From what I know so far she always wears pink. And lives in a pink house. And she taught Abigail how to peddle her bike today.

Olivia is seriously my biggest helper. Most days. Tonight while giving the kids a bath, I was letting them play and Olivia took a wash cloth and cleaned Nathan's face for me. She is always trying to cheer him up if he's crabby and tonight she shared her ice cream with him. She really has a good heart.

Speaking of which, when she emptied her piggy bank and counted her money ($1.57) she asked me if she could go buy something for Abigail. I said sure when Dad gets home. Then she asked if she could just give it to an orphan. Or maybe that little girl in New Jersey whose house got washed away. Or maybe someone in Japan whose house got washed away. Finally deciding on an orphan since that is just the saddest thing she could possibly imagine. So we are sending her money to a local orphanage. She wished she had hundreds of dollars so she could give it to everyone. When I asked her if she would buy anything for herself she said, "I don't care about myself, Mom. I just like to help people. Isn't that what Jesus would do?" Yes, yes I think it is exactly what Jesus would do. And that's what I told her. And she beamed.

Maybe I do like these kids after all.